Jump
Sometimes you just have to jump into things without questioning or asking why. The thing about the rabbit hole, that was mentioned in the last post is that everyone has those moments. Sometimes we chose them and sometimes they are chosen for us based on the lessons we need to learn. Eventually you will have a rabbit hold moment or one will be selected for you.
My latest rabbit hole started with a choice I made to have my wonky back repaired. Now mind you I did not have a crystal ball and being a medium I can state we can’t read our own future. We also can’t get the winning lottery numbers because if we could, we would use them to improve our own lives and those we love. So, I chose to have the surgery based on the facts I was given by the experts I consulted. No where in the mass of paperwork I had to sign did it say, “by the way, you have this done you will spend 3 weeks in hospital instead of 1 and you will have stomach complications and have to deal with detox from pain meds.”
I was also not told the surgery would trigger an episode of a rare genetic blood condition that I never worried about. When I first heard of porphyria, my mother told me she had it and it was genetic. I talked it over with my doctor at the time I was informed and told don’t worry about it. Not worth testing you for so have a good life. I did and do have a good life but the flash backs hit with the diagnosis.
So, I did jump but after I jumped the rabbit hole opened up and I had a lot of scattered pieces of me to pick up. Once you jump out of the comfort zone and into the rabbit hole experience, you discover your life is not always in your control.
Your next step is to understand the twists and turns your travels down the rabbit hole will take. There will be good days and days you wish you never had to experience but the sum total of the journey is always awesome. In my own journey, I realized when I am not feeling my best, I tend to pull inward and react from a point of fear. I had to realize I could not do everything and that it was okay to let things slide. I learned to apologize when fear and pain had me reacting with anger and not love.
The rabbit hole is a very humbling experience. One of the hardest things I had to deal with during my latest trip was the importance others played in my life. Because of the side effects I could not drive and I could not manage a lot of simple tasks I took for granted on my own. I had always been the one to fill other’s needs and now I was needing others to help me learn to do something as simple as putting on my own socks. Getting dressed took me much longer than usual. There were days just brushing my teeth and combing my hair took most of my energy. Pity parties were the norm. The one thing that I held on to was my faith and that eventually I would be guided out of the dark part of the rabbit hole and into a whole new way of seeing and appreciating life.
There are no promises given that life will be without rabbit holes and detours. Life is not always smooth even though it may look like it is to those who do not know you well. Everyone is given challenges in life. That is how we grow and learn. Some of what seemed like deep rabbit holes in my past, now seem like little pot holes as I look at them as building blocks to who I want to be in the future.
Do not be afraid to jump into new experiences even if it means a trip down the rabbit hole. Think of Alice and all the wonders she experienced when she jumped. There were challenges and new ways of viewing life but in the end when she emerged she had a clearer vision of what she wanted and what was acceptable in her life. Know you are not alone when you chose to jump or even when you get pushed into the rabbit hole. You will emerge stronger and braver than before the experience. You will not be alone in the journey even when you feel alone. Embrace all life brings and when needed, Jump!
